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My mind is like TeXeL's painting. No need to write this..
.
..nothing better to do though!

Sadness is just a state of mind
but it's still here
We are not sattisfied by
the hapiness that is truly handed to us

A fact is true when the transmiter shows confidence.
Everything is subjective. Everything is falling apart.

Is this all a game we play?

p.s. I don't even like what I write here. I'll stop and have nothing to do. Perhaps I just have to sleep. To be so oppresed

that you loose any motivation for acting. Sleep? Staring at the ceiling and enjoying this? It doesn't even have any sense to

ask WHY?

Our philosophy is a bunch of WHYs. We ask for these as long as we are worried about something that shouldn't be here. I wish

I wouldn't be here. Do I have to answer those WHYs?


Something funnier now that might have a kind of sense.

Top 10 things to do and forget

0) Destiny takes you.
1) Sleep.
2) Eat.
3) Dream.
4) Lonely walking.
5) Meet friends.
6) Beer.
7) Watch demos.
8) Plan.
9) Masturbate.
10) ??? (Search it)

Not recomended: play games, fall in love, potatos
True but invalid: create (it is supposed that YOU CAN'T CREATE during this moment)

Thou shalt sleep now. And dream.

optimus i really think you need to read about my spook telepathy theory
you are slipping into a realm of low level existance that you might not be ready for...
open your heart...and most important be patient and meek ...the answers will come in their own time

be patient and wait until you are in balance with totality... dont dive to deep until you can swim and understand the water..

ps i am seel your resident psychologist theorist
i hope maybe i will receive an honours degree with my theory

optimus, you need to get laid.

Just make sure you use protection 'coz I don't think the world is quite ready for a bunch of mini-optimuses (optimi...?) running around.

Nosfe: he solved that with point 9...

Sadness is just a state of mind
Yes, no matter what you have what you get, it's still here. Your "state of mind" depends only of your state of mind, i'm sure of that.

Not recomended: potatos <- for this i strongly disagree, potatos are the BEST REAL THING !!!
anyway, good sleeping ;)

i can feel it.

nosfe's absolutely right.....and Gargaj: Nooooooo! :D

That's Excellent Advice Seel

A serious hint Optimus: Do a therapy!

or just work :] that make your mind busy for the day.

"do you have to share with us anytime your body does something?"

i guess this will lighten up your day

A party featuring a few bottles of Tequila, a few crates of lager, some spliffs, some grade a coke and a fair amount of ladies would sort Optimus out quite well I reckon.

Skarab: About potatos, it's a joke. Actually someone told me to eat potato chips to cure my mood, because they have Lithium or something. But I found out that potato chips are bad for my teeth though the plain potatos are nice enough. Do they work also?

Actually the real problem yesterday was that I have to do a work (programming and writting) for university, and since it's an obligation I almost don't work on it. And since it's a priority I've to first do that then democoding or anything else creative. But since I wasn't working on this project, I was very anxious to not see my self doing anything, and I was playing games or being at the net (at least the second is better cause I discussed this with friends on MSN). The only solution is to just sit down and finish that damn thing! Although, there is something that is blocking me from studying, I learned to dislike it..

The rest is just, because of my sadness for this specific matter (that I can neither work or be creative from days before xmas till this day), I made other sad thoughts too in the process. About gurls that I cannot reach, the subjectivity of everything, etc..

overleeching warez can be a temporary cure to lack feeling too.

lame but so good :>

optimus: join an internet dating agency reccomend yahoo or dating direct

its a good way of having a contatant flow of dates
and get laid everysooften,, dont tell them about your problems though until you get laid

i was a member and had atleast 1 date a month
its nice to always have a new girl to look forewards to
:)

about your studies
if you dont want to do it then you probably chose the wrong subject...you have to be really interested to be able to do a degree course properly
check out my telepathy/mental health theory
maybe there is something there that might help spurr you on??

Yep, that's the problem, I don't like my studies. Or my parents made things so that I don't like studying at all. But now I have to get rid of them..

My brother says it's easy to get into something but much harder to get out of it. For every aspect of life if you think.

As for dating: I have friends for whom they worked. I don't care for the moment if it works later as a relationship, I just care of meeting girls and talking to them. Also, I could continue being more frequent in okcupid that I like or perhaps you have something better to suggest. But the problem is dedication. I am not dedicated enough, it's just a temporary "how good(?) it would be if I pwned a girl" obsession. And then other problems arise (studying, democoding, being weird) and I forget the whole subject. Perhaps it's not my time yet. If I really wanted having a date, I would have gone for it 100%. Not much motivation but I would also never say no to a new opportunity..

yeh man but you know just join the agency and let the girls come to you....if you feel like chatting then just meet up and chat if you dont then leave them online until you can be bothered...

its better to have them there than not at all...

dude, get yourself a blog and i might stop by if i'm interested in how you're feeling today ... abusing pouet for a "dear diary" purpuse ticks me off a little, sorry.

The problem is that I have a blog.

... but not enough hits?