Code energy
category: general [glöplog]
Ok,. I have a blog for this, but somehow the subject has to do with the scene or coding so I won't care.
Code energy or energy code or what gives us energy to code.
I am le tired. I mean I feel every piece of my body down and it all falls in the chair so abruptly like a suck of potatos or something. And then I wanted to sleep.
Actually the problem is that this reminds me how it was when I HAD to study to pass the exams in the university (which is no more hopefully). I was feeling a great weight. Oh,. man...
It's the same now with demos. In fact, I was never really much motivated to work in specific areas of democoding, like finishing that damn thing. I try to catch up with some piece of code for some project I have to finish soon and I get caught lazy. I instantly become a sack of potatos. But when I open my old 486 to just experiment on some code just for fun and not because I HAVE to finish something and soon, not because I HAVE to see my self that he achieved being creative (or succesful?) this day, I work for hours! Not 5 lines of code and then watching something else on the net. Of course 486 is an example, doesn't have to be something oldschool to make me horny to work with. It just have to do to have the desire to experiment with something that time and not being something I HAVE to finish in time.
The magic word here is HAVE. I wake up and say "I have to do the demo", "I have to do the demo", etc. In fact, it always worked like this. Each morning I woke up and my mind was filled with an obligation in the scene and that was draining a lot of energy. In fact, in the past I managed more with this oppresion, I managed to sit my ass and do something even if still not full productive when I don't really want to. But it worked for a quarter. Now, it seems I am getting old and while I say "Just shit for one friggin day and do something and you will finish it in a week and not having to be anxious for not being creative for a month or so. It ends up sooner!" my other self says "Not this time! And when I finish it, there will be a new stupid demo I'll have to work for. Same shit.."
I have decided to get finished soon with what I have to do (and hopefully very soon because there is a party invitation I am oblidged to do that I just can't release... after the party :P) and then really take a break from the scene projects for the July and August, instead of my programming job which still sometimes makes me feel so but it's different than demos.
Ahh,. a Summer without a demo obligation. Saying it obligation, that's where I miss it..
So, any suggestions?
p.s. People tell me, stop whine, just do it. The problem is that this does not work with me. What works is not doing it and just abandon it. But somehow I can't abandon it. I will do after the invitation for a long while..
Code energy or energy code or what gives us energy to code.
I am le tired. I mean I feel every piece of my body down and it all falls in the chair so abruptly like a suck of potatos or something. And then I wanted to sleep.
Actually the problem is that this reminds me how it was when I HAD to study to pass the exams in the university (which is no more hopefully). I was feeling a great weight. Oh,. man...
It's the same now with demos. In fact, I was never really much motivated to work in specific areas of democoding, like finishing that damn thing. I try to catch up with some piece of code for some project I have to finish soon and I get caught lazy. I instantly become a sack of potatos. But when I open my old 486 to just experiment on some code just for fun and not because I HAVE to finish something and soon, not because I HAVE to see my self that he achieved being creative (or succesful?) this day, I work for hours! Not 5 lines of code and then watching something else on the net. Of course 486 is an example, doesn't have to be something oldschool to make me horny to work with. It just have to do to have the desire to experiment with something that time and not being something I HAVE to finish in time.
The magic word here is HAVE. I wake up and say "I have to do the demo", "I have to do the demo", etc. In fact, it always worked like this. Each morning I woke up and my mind was filled with an obligation in the scene and that was draining a lot of energy. In fact, in the past I managed more with this oppresion, I managed to sit my ass and do something even if still not full productive when I don't really want to. But it worked for a quarter. Now, it seems I am getting old and while I say "Just shit for one friggin day and do something and you will finish it in a week and not having to be anxious for not being creative for a month or so. It ends up sooner!" my other self says "Not this time! And when I finish it, there will be a new stupid demo I'll have to work for. Same shit.."
I have decided to get finished soon with what I have to do (and hopefully very soon because there is a party invitation I am oblidged to do that I just can't release... after the party :P) and then really take a break from the scene projects for the July and August, instead of my programming job which still sometimes makes me feel so but it's different than demos.
Ahh,. a Summer without a demo obligation. Saying it obligation, that's where I miss it..
So, any suggestions?
p.s. People tell me, stop whine, just do it. The problem is that this does not work with me. What works is not doing it and just abandon it. But somehow I can't abandon it. I will do after the invitation for a long while..
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My motivation comes from seeing it all come to life. My energy comes from a tall can of Rockstar or Bawls energy drink.
MONEY! FAME! POWER!
ah sorry optimus, you were talking about demos, my bad.
ah sorry optimus, you were talking about demos, my bad.
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. Yes it does. All the time you spend on whining at pouet can be spent coding, or doing something else constructive.
p.s. People tell me, stop whine, just do it. The problem is that this does not work with me
rating of thread 0/100 entertaiment and information. typical optimus bullshit
Optimus is finally revealed to be a female! Nobody going to make a move?
Unssi get a beer! Or ten!
Unssi get a beer! Or ten!
Lol @emperor. Actually, that's the first thing I thought I'd try near finishing writting this :P
Maybe that's the reason why it usually points me as a female? The size of blubbering..
What Preacher said, except that I would have used one or two bird names to make my point heavier, my usual way to deal with diplomacy that is :)
>My motivation comes from seeing it all come to life
Doesn't work for me. Even if I get a bit of fullfillment when it finally comes to life. But is it fullfillment of having something to show or of finally getting rid of it? (Just to start with another demo shit shortly after)
I told you, the "just do it" thing does not compute for me. Maybe I just have to search deeper and find why it does actually not work? Why can't I do it (this). Which I am already doing and I am in a good way anyways..
Doesn't work for me. Even if I get a bit of fullfillment when it finally comes to life. But is it fullfillment of having something to show or of finally getting rid of it? (Just to start with another demo shit shortly after)
I told you, the "just do it" thing does not compute for me. Maybe I just have to search deeper and find why it does actually not work? Why can't I do it (this). Which I am already doing and I am in a good way anyways..
bird names?
All these years the same story. When are you going to realise that the key to overcoming your apathy is to become independent ?
hmm. I am independent but I also go through bouts of apathy just like Optimus. I want to do great things and be successful, but I get into huge ruts that last for a really long time. Occasionally I get some energy from nowhere and I can work on something for days on end, but for the most part I cant ever seem to do all the things I really want to however is it incompetence or a lack of motivation? wtf is motivation anyway? Inspiration?
Anyway, w/e this is pouet and im at work and I dont get paid to believe in the power of my dreams. :)
Anyway, w/e this is pouet and im at work and I dont get paid to believe in the power of my dreams. :)
optimus: want to feel like an übermensch ? get cocaine.
"It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things."
Leonardo Da Vinci (code).
Leonardo Da Vinci (code).
Leonardo = La Palice :/
>All these years the same story. When are you going to realise that the key
>to overcoming your apathy is to become independent ?
It's not anymore that, if you think to take care of other things in my life, get my own job so that I can be independent from my parents, etc. I've found that maybe it's something inside me or the motives I started doing things that doesn't let me be productive. But maybe I should just stfu and not be. Even though I don't like to see myself not doing nothing. But maybe I should really take a rest and not care. The latest is a problem too..
>to overcoming your apathy is to become independent ?
It's not anymore that, if you think to take care of other things in my life, get my own job so that I can be independent from my parents, etc. I've found that maybe it's something inside me or the motives I started doing things that doesn't let me be productive. But maybe I should just stfu and not be. Even though I don't like to see myself not doing nothing. But maybe I should really take a rest and not care. The latest is a problem too..
take a rest from taking a rest ?
In the end the beginning is just the beginning of the end. It all starts over. Everything going in circles, repeating over and over. Nothing makes sense. There is no escaping the vicious circle.
Did I say that?
No, taking a rest from any scene project I was about to plan. And then, whether I will do anything else in my life or not is my concern. Maybe I won't. I'll just enjoy living in apathy. If I can manage to not care..
No, taking a rest from any scene project I was about to plan. And then, whether I will do anything else in my life or not is my concern. Maybe I won't. I'll just enjoy living in apathy. If I can manage to not care..
Get a job at some game company and work your ass off with 30+ unpaid hours of overtime a week. If you are lucky you can even stay during the weekend and save a lot of $$$ on an apartment.
Watch a film, or go out with friends. Then perhaps you will find where your original motivation to code came from. I think everyone has times when they lose their motivation, and a project becomes a chore. I usually find that this happens when I come across a difficult problem, or when I can't find *the* problem. For me, a lot of coding is boring - it's the result that makes it worth while.
